12-11-14

It's 1:24 am right now and I'm having this STRONG urge to blog.

So how's life lately?
As for me, I'm currently having holidays. A long one, how long? 2 months long.
Sometimes (most of the time) I'm just too lifeless doing nothing and lie on the bed like a boss till I totally forget what's the day. Sounds pretty serious eh?

In order to keep myself alive in this world, I have made myself to join a lot of classes.
One of the objectives is to improve my grades. I know I've done a really bad job this year. I'm sorry :c Will work super duper hard for next year's exam. C'mon it's my last year in high school! Gonna be a better me and perform my best for next year. Yeah!

Did I tell you I've joined Korean class? ^^ I always wanted to learn this language since I was 13, the age when i gained interest to everything about Korea. Never thought that I still able to learn it again. Initially, I registered the short-term class, which means, holiday class that only last for 3 months. Well, since the teacher said we can never learn much things in a short period so why don't I just join the long-term class. Ya know, I'm pretty serious in learning Korean. Yes, at first K-pop is the major reason why I wanted to learn this language. But after years, I finally discovered how amazing Korea is. By making the first step, that's by learning their language, I wish this could make myself feel closer to Korea.

Btw, have you guys heard of tenchijk from youtube?
Man, he's awesome! I came across his video this morning and wow, things that he said in his video are really impressive. I like how he talks about random topic and love to give opinions for his subscribers who's having obstacles in life. He's a good listener ya know. And one more thing that made his attractive is, he loves God, like A LOT, he's really religious! You can never find a youtuber like him, he's absolutely different from others! It's kinda sad b'cus he's underrated, he deserves more spotlight than other youtubers who talk nonsense in their videos. Anyway I hope he will updates more soon cus I really want to know about this awesome dude :))

That's all for today. Gosh, it's already 2:05 am! How long does it take for me to produce a blogpost? Tsk tsk.

♥120914

今天就给部落格更新一下吧

其实已经好久好久没用中文打文章了。老实说，我中文不好英文也差不多而已，生活在multi-language的社会里就是会比较麻烦一点。很难balance这些东西，有时候实在没办法完全表达自己的想法就干脆用broken english来表达啊哈哈。其实我已经限制自己不能用broken english来交谈 因为感觉上上了高中之后英文程度越来越低了，都是老师害的 -_-

Anyway这几天都过得很平淡 偶尔因为受了委屈就emo一下 过后就重新抬起头过日子 人生就是这样。现在2012也过了差不多半年的时间 不知道为什么我一直很迫不及待2013年的到来。对于2013，我只有2个形容词来形容1。兴奋，因为可以当senior，很快就可以拿到driving license，很快就可以毕业，2。担心，因为怕考试，怕争取不好的学校，怕我会毁了自己的未来，怕我毁了一切。我承认自己是那种last minute才有动力拼的人。上两次的major exam我认定都是我自己lucky才能走到现在...事实上我不觉得自己有那么厉害。So，for下一次的major exam，也就是我最后一次的大考，我也希望自己能继续lucky下去。这次的大考不只需要充分的准备，也要靠一点自己的运气！我怎么说到好像自己今年就要大考那样 哈哈。我也觉得自己说得太早了^^；；

感觉上很快的，就要到year-end-holiday了。其实啊 我对这次假期有个小愿望...那就是我要去见见我爱人们。某个organizer一直给hint，我个人觉得很大可能是SJ-M，只是不晓得是什么event。新加坡那里已经确定有SMTOWN LIVE TOUR了，真好T_T。虽然我现在只能为见SJB们做打算，可是我也好想好想见见我亲爱的孩子们。Back to topic，如果可以的话，我倒是希望是SJ全员来^^ 包括ZM和Henry。假如真的确定是他们，我也不能马上做决定。全都要一步一步来，也不知道能不能成功。求保佑啊>w<"

不知不觉就说了这么多。要说的都说了。就这样。

♥120803

我很累。
你们说的一切我都放在心上
别以为我整天嘻嘻哈哈的 什么都不在乎。
Please.

I'm tired of covering up myself with all the fake smile and jokes,
All i wanted to do is making people smile, happy and joyful
but what do i get in the end? Tease? Words with hidden meaning?

Why do i care this much? I was born with a character like this
people hates me, no one ever treat me with true heart
Every single day i told myself to keep my head up and hide all my pains behind.

I'm used to all these pain. I don't belong to happiness.

-End of the post-

Decided to blog cos I'm having a bad day today :"""D

Few days ago i just discovered that some people had been hating on me since few years ago. I guess its my shitty personality cause people to have a bad impression on me, i knew it. Its hard for me to be 'friendly' with the people I'm not familiar with, thus, i always have my oh-you-suck while I'm around them. When i was still a little girl, i don't really have much friends. My mum usually let me to be at home and that's major factor causing me to have a bad social skills. I'm not trying to be lansi or what...some people just make me feel uncomfortable when they're around :x and one more thing is, i don't really talk to strangers, if i did not reply after your words doesn't me that I'm not listening :c I hope some of them will read this...

To be very honest i'm actually really afraid that i will lose some friends due to my troublesome personality. I know some of them treat me well, but i'm not really sure if they can truthfully accept it. Sometimes i feel that i'm giving them too much trouble and this feeling of guiltiness forever haunting me .__.

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I came across a girl's blog...she lives near around my town i guess.
DAMN we're both 96'er but wow i was amazed by her blogging skills,
She was so determined to blog for such a long period
her english & chinese is definitely x1000000000000 times better than me.
omg 为什么别人可以那么有才 我却不能。我觉得我没有一样东西可以比得过人家 :S
F A I L

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Just changed my music player. I'm not sure whether if it's working...if the answer is a no, then i'll just fix it next time. In case you're wondering, i changed the song to Yiruma's Love me. Peaceful melody rules the world! :]] (Y)

The end of the post. XOXOxx

Memories in mind

I failed to pay attention during class today,
therefore, i started my chatting session with ma friend. Just two of us.
We chatted something regarding our past,
our childhood, primary school days, first day on secondary school etc.
It was nice listening to other people's story and i love sharing my story with 'em too.
We're experiencing different things but then we're fated to meet each other,
isn't it great? :)

When i got home, i started to recall back all my memories.
I came across one of my friend's blog, and started to read her old post.
All the pictures of the past played across my mind, like a slide show.

I miss the old days i spent my time in my kindergarten
I miss the old days when i transferred to another kindergarten which has better education
I miss the old days when i used to cry cos i was sick of being alone in primary 1 T_T
I miss the old days when i left Penang and move to Pahang
I miss the old days when i started listening to K-pop (major addiction...)
I miss the old days when i was having my first major exam in my life
I miss the old days when i had my own laptop and started my cyber life
I miss the old days when i first stepped into my 1st secondary school
I miss the old days when i'm being a racist asshole and quarreled with some guys
I miss the old days when i don't even study during exam and i got pretty sh*t on my report card
I miss the old days when i can have everything that i want ...

When i'm not saying that what i have right now is not valuable at all,
It's just that, we need some time to see how much we appreciate something that we used to have
Maybe one day, i'll be crying on the phone and call my current schoolmates and saying that how much i miss the times we been together. Time flies with just a blink of eyes, although now we don't really enjoy what we have in our hand right now, but i know, someday in the future, i'll be missing these old days.

Signing out. xo.

p/s:

#1 Impressed by myself, seriously, i love how i determined to finish this post :D I love blogging, i really do. Wish to blog more often in the future.
#2 I started blogging since i'm 13 (with lousy chinese & english -.-). There's a time where i wanted to delete this blog and vanish all the things i wrote before...but luckily i didnt.
#3 ....kthxbye

H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S

Proud to say that i'm pretty satisfied with my current life.
I may not be the richest person, prettiest girl or the smartest student
But i have a caring family, craziest friends, playful classmates, not much, but its more than enough :D
Thank you Lord for giving me all these awesome people in my life.
Wish to have more fun in the future.

Park Ye-rin

I'm a big fan of youtube and i've my own list of favorite youtuber
but i bet you'll never know which one is my favorite haha.

Here's a video of her that goes viral, 5mil views yo! check it out:



TADAA~ Its a youtube baby from Korea, Park Yerin!

I came over this video somewhere on facebook, i was curious at first cos the thumbnail is pic of a baby sleeping so i just randomly click on it

After 2:04 minutes...

I was like...

GOSH, THAT IS THE CUTEST THING I EVER SEE! HOW COULD A CHILD WAKE UP FROM NAP AND SMILE LIDDAT? ARENT THEY SUPPOSE TO CRY? THIS BABY SMILES AND SLEEP AND WAKE UP AND SMILE AGAIN AND BACK TO SLEEP OVER AND OVER AGAIN AWWWWW

I was so amazed by this little baby, so i clicked on the youtube username that is bobaepapa, expecting for more and more videos like this
The whole playlist was flooded by this little girl's face ....ASDFGHJKL!!! and i started to watch all her videos.

Now i'm Yerin biggest stalker fan :D

My top 5 favorite video of Yerin













Most of my favorite videos is recorded when she was little. Yerin has grown up now. Tbh, its pretty sad to see baby grow up, cant they just stay as a baby forever? T_T Anyways, these are her latest videos~ still cute as always ^^







K la end of spazzing.
Yerin ah~ dont grow up so fast k? If u do, please remain your cuteness until u're a teenager xD
ONNIE LOVES YOU XOXO

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A chapter of my life

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W-T-F
i was shocked by blogger's new look. Haha.

So this morning i went to school with a mixed feeling.
i was reluctant to go to school on weekends. Hey c'mon, its weekends man, we were suppose to sleep like no tmrw...who the hell likes to go to hell on this lovely saturday?
But what to do, i have to attend no matter what cos its my former class teacher, Miss A's, retirement day :'(

When i was still form 2, my class teacher always warn us to behave well right after we entered form 3 cos our form 3's class teacher (Miss A) is very garang lol. Idk why all of us believed her. -.- Then when it comes to the first day of my form 3 life...i finally get to know this teacher. I thought she was "temporarily" being kind to us. Day after day, month after month, i realized she's totally different from what my f2 teacher said to us!

I remember she used to give us candies on our birthday. Tiny ones, but lots of love :D Oh oh, she also gave us banana chips as a reward  for winning kebersihan kelas! SEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Have u ever meet a teacher that is willing to spend lots of $$$ just to give encouragement for her students? I know its just a little candy and some junk foods...but hey, all these are more than just a food! It contains the love of a teacher :')

My friends and i sent her a gift today. It was kinda last minute but i hope she'll like it. Another surprise is, all of us (form 3 classmates) made a video and leave her a goodbye message in the end. I saw she crying, awwWWwwWwwwwwwWWW :')

It was great to have a teacher like her in my life. I'll never forget the days we spent with each other.

♥120406

Right after i entered form 4,
i started to think about my future, like ALOT.
Idk if im just dreaming or planning for my future,
i never think of other stuff or other people...
im only considering about myself, my own path

Of cos im not gonna tell u whats on my mind right now
If i do, people will start to tease, cos im not the so-called "TOP STUDENT"
only top students deserve to have a big dream,
average students can be found all over the streets,
thats why we average students have no value at all.

anyway, let me walk through 2 years of my high school life,
i believe in God. Whatever opportunity that he gave me,
i'll accept it with all my heart.

Everything happens for a reason.
Quote of my life ^^

♥120316

U know what, whenever im emo, i thought of my blog :D
so whenever im emo, i'll update my blog but none of my blog post are emo one HAHA. #FAILURE

I guess quite a number of people are watching Dream High 2 recently.
Its been a while since i check out the latest k-drama and DH2 officially caught my attention!
I've no idea what this drama is about since i never watched DH1. Basically, its an inspirational drama that encourage people to pursue their dream.
Love stories is a must in every k-drama and the love story from DH2 is kinda complicated LOL
but if u want me to choose, i love rubik couple the most :) puppy love #wins

I like how JB fell for Hyesung, its the sweetest thing ever! ♥ Unfortunately they broke up in episode 13 :c Damn i wish they were together again.
I cried when Hyesung gave the 'Together' song to JB and wants him to sing with Rian! The saddest thing in life is u sacrifice ur love to others just because u want him to have a better life. Sobs a river *sniffle sniffle*



I srsly cant wait for the new episode to release! Idc how is ending but pleaseeeee let my rubik couple end up together. T3T

Its been a while. March~

Hello. Just finish editing my blog. If you've noticed, i changed a new blogskin (obviously lol) and a new url address. I've been thinking to change my into something new since last year, anyway yayyy cos i finally did it! xD

I havent update my blog for ages, i know. I always wanted to update something, but when my fingers reached the keyboard, i've no idea how to start at all. I already planning to close my blog cos im too lazy to deal with the html codes OTL but heyyy look who's updating right now?? ITS ME, AGAIN LOL.

Since its march thats mean my 1st tov just ended. 1 week and 3 days, phew, what a tiring week! Emm so, about my 1st tov...the 1st week was going well but when it comes to the 2nd week, i was totally dead. Screwed up most of the papers. Haha, who cares la, i dont mind to fail for the first time. I'll put more effort next time, promise~ :目

Guess thats all the things i wanna mention right here. I had bunch of ideas for what to update just now T_t but now i can't remember at all. Damn it.

*do follow me on twitter @ppHyunnie

Happy holiday, xoxo.

The first post of the year

Hey there. The first week of school is finally over.
As u know, im entering form 4 this year. An official high school student now, yay! ;)

Recall the first day of school...
I woke at 5 on that day, idek why am i so excited, maybe its because i dont have to be a loner at home anymore? LOL. Back to the topic. After im fully prepared, my dad drove me to school. I was so happy right after i arrived at school, i thought i was the early bird and i can get a good seat in class...unfortunately, i was wrong. Everyone arrived earlier than me TT__TT Huhu, anyways, im still sitting near to my friends so its ok.

About the class and teachers, not much thing to say about. Since i'm a high school student, so there will be some new challenges coming my way. Learning new subject is a part of it. For instance Biology, Chemistry, Physics and Additional Mathematics. So total up I'm taking 10 subjects this year and for the following year as well. Sobs. #FML

But for now school was quite fun and relaxing, as usual. We were having orientation for almost half of the day in school therefore, teachers have no chance to give us extra homework, teehee. But i guess this condition wont last any longer, tuition classes and tonnes of homework are coming soon and yes of course, my long lost friend, EXAMINATION!!!

Guess i have to be serious about studies this year, although i know it wont last long HAHA.

Btw, i set up a few goals for myself
1. Use more proper english, no more broken/malaysian english/ direct translation from chinese #LOL
2. Learn how to study/solve problems by my own, basically is be more independent
3. Try to improve writing skills by updating a longer tweet on twitter/ blog a longer post on blogger/ Write a longer status on facebook etc OTL
4. Watch more American movies/ Read more novels

Well that's it :] Hope everything goes well. God bless.