Decided to blog cos I'm having a bad day today :"""D

Few days ago i just discovered that some people had been hating on me since few years ago. I guess its my shitty personality cause people to have a bad impression on me, i knew it. Its hard for me to be 'friendly' with the people I'm not familiar with, thus, i always have my oh-you-suck while I'm around them. When i was still a little girl, i don't really have much friends. My mum usually let me to be at home and that's major factor causing me to have a bad social skills. I'm not trying to be lansi or what...some people just make me feel uncomfortable when they're around :x and one more thing is, i don't really talk to strangers, if i did not reply after your words doesn't me that I'm not listening :c I hope some of them will read this...

To be very honest i'm actually really afraid that i will lose some friends due to my troublesome personality. I know some of them treat me well, but i'm not really sure if they can truthfully accept it. Sometimes i feel that i'm giving them too much trouble and this feeling of guiltiness forever haunting me .__.

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I came across a girl's blog...she lives near around my town i guess.
DAMN we're both 96'er but wow i was amazed by her blogging skills,
She was so determined to blog for such a long period
her english & chinese is definitely x1000000000000 times better than me.
omg 为什么别人可以那么有才 我却不能。我觉得我没有一样东西可以比得过人家 :S
F A I L

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Just changed my music player. I'm not sure whether if it's working...if the answer is a no, then i'll just fix it next time. In case you're wondering, i changed the song to Yiruma's Love me. Peaceful melody rules the world! :]] (Y)

The end of the post. XOXOxx

Memories in mind

I failed to pay attention during class today,
therefore, i started my chatting session with ma friend. Just two of us.
We chatted something regarding our past,
our childhood, primary school days, first day on secondary school etc.
It was nice listening to other people's story and i love sharing my story with 'em too.
We're experiencing different things but then we're fated to meet each other,
isn't it great? :)

When i got home, i started to recall back all my memories.
I came across one of my friend's blog, and started to read her old post.
All the pictures of the past played across my mind, like a slide show.

I miss the old days i spent my time in my kindergarten
I miss the old days when i transferred to another kindergarten which has better education
I miss the old days when i used to cry cos i was sick of being alone in primary 1 T_T
I miss the old days when i left Penang and move to Pahang
I miss the old days when i started listening to K-pop (major addiction...)
I miss the old days when i was having my first major exam in my life
I miss the old days when i had my own laptop and started my cyber life
I miss the old days when i first stepped into my 1st secondary school
I miss the old days when i'm being a racist asshole and quarreled with some guys
I miss the old days when i don't even study during exam and i got pretty sh*t on my report card
I miss the old days when i can have everything that i want ...

When i'm not saying that what i have right now is not valuable at all,
It's just that, we need some time to see how much we appreciate something that we used to have
Maybe one day, i'll be crying on the phone and call my current schoolmates and saying that how much i miss the times we been together. Time flies with just a blink of eyes, although now we don't really enjoy what we have in our hand right now, but i know, someday in the future, i'll be missing these old days.

Signing out. xo.

p/s:

#1 Impressed by myself, seriously, i love how i determined to finish this post :D I love blogging, i really do. Wish to blog more often in the future.
#2 I started blogging since i'm 13 (with lousy chinese & english -.-). There's a time where i wanted to delete this blog and vanish all the things i wrote before...but luckily i didnt.
#3 ....kthxbye

H-A-P-P-I-N-E-S-S

Proud to say that i'm pretty satisfied with my current life.
I may not be the richest person, prettiest girl or the smartest student
But i have a caring family, craziest friends, playful classmates, not much, but its more than enough :D
Thank you Lord for giving me all these awesome people in my life.
Wish to have more fun in the future.