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Thursday, December 18, 2014

I thought


I always thought someone out there would actually care
I thought the talks we had the other day was real

I waited,
Hoping you'll tried a little harder, last a little longer, earning my trust

But you don't.
Ha, how silly I am
I thought you were real,
I thought you really cared

But you leave me with a soulless body

-x

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Do What You Love, Love What You Do: Student's Perspective on Studies/Pursuing Dreams

I believe everybody has ever come across of this famous quote,

success is 99% hard work and 1% luck
Yes, I do believe that hard work is the key to succeed, it applies to everyone from every stage of life. Hard work not only refers to how many time and energy you're willing to sacrifice in doing something, I would say your attitude while dealing with your work also connected to the hard work. Meanwhile for luck, I guess it would mean your talents, brilliance or whatever you call it.

But I can only agree partially on the previous statement because I personally think that PASSION also plays a role in whatever thing you're about to achieve. Here's a picture of my favorite saying which has slowly becomes the principle of my life.


If I was going to reconstruct the statement that I quoted earlier, the final result would be "Success is 50% passion, 49% hard work and 1% luck" (you don't always see me mentioning numbers! This is odd!) For some unknown reason, I strongly believe that Passion is major factor that keeps one moving on in whatever they're pursuing, be it studies or their desired careers despite the obstacles they face in everyday life. You can always relate Passion with Love, Love is a strong word and that shows how powerful Passion can be in an average person's life. I know some people are not fortunate enough and have been struggling in life because not being able to do things that they truly enjoy, hence the Passion in their bone eventually dies and nowhere to be seen. But trust me, if you still keep that Passion inside you, everywhere is an opportunity for you to expand your inner self.

Though this may not be a big thing for some people, I myself ever been the situation that I almost lost hope in studying. I was in the science stream for 2 years during my high school days, it.was.a.total.disaster. Even before form 4 starts, I know I already going to the wrong path but still, I stayed, thinking that I could cope with it. In the end I found that studying is no longer fun for me, every single day I tried to force myself to digest the syllabus but I failed. Why? Then I thought, maybe it's because of interest? I got none. Not a single thing that can make me improve, attending tuition classes are only to make me realize how fucked up my life is. These were the days when I was being looked down by others, like my very own classmates, friends and even the teachers think that you're at the final stage of a incurable disease. I'm not even exaggerating guys! But I still believe in myself, I trust that I own a pretty outstanding study spirit but I did not make fully use of it during my war with SPM thus resulting a 'so-so' result on my slip. Not going to lie that I actually get a little jealous with some of classmates who did not pay much attention in class and still able to obtain more As than me. From that moment I started to think, hard work is just a piece of shit.

Passion is also the reason why I rejected offer from Matriculation and UNIMAS. I was so immature back in the days that I applied to these places hoping to pursue science for higher education, how silly I am! My parents were so worried and attempted to convince me not to turn down the offers. But see how far I've gone right now, all thanks to my stubbornness and understanding parents. Haha! I know there will be a lot down sides and consequences for every steps that I have made. STPM may not be the best choice but I'm grateful for what I had done for myself, at least, well at least, I am studying things that I actually have interest on and now I have no doubt about my ability in academic studies. Learning things that you love isn't this the beauty of having education? 

To sum up this post, I would like to encourage people out there not to stop believing your dream, I know this is a cliché thing to say but if you want to do things you love as a living, then go ahead! Remember #YOLO always.


~should be revising literature instead 
but I'm feelin' good after successfully producing a post, ha!


Until then.

Inspired

2:42 am right now.
Just when I had done with some revision, I decided to give my phone a scroll.
And I somehow came across a blog, that truly inspires me, deeply.
Hence, this explains why I'm doing this post,
I never ever thought of abandoning this blog because writing is one of my passion,
though I know I'm still lacking at the talent part, but whatever :P

About school
I'm pretty glad that I chose the new school for form 6.
It was a great start for me.
I feel comfortable studying there, with sufficient amount of stress pressing me,
but overall I'm fine with it.

The best thing about this school is that
They never limit any academic/curricular opportunities or any high positions to the best students only
I like how they practice the idea of EQ > IQ
Which TOTALLY do not apply in my previous school.
Smart students = Best in everything
They keep choosing the same old people for every competition, every.single.year
Didn't even bother about the other students talents and abilities.
Wasted much.

xxx

Anyways
I've always wanted to transform my writing style into something more formal (is that the right word?) instead of casual writing.
Been inspired to do so,
but still,
talent matters.




Until then.

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Envious

I hate myself for being envious of everything. (Emphasis: Envy ≠ jealous)
Even tiny little thing can be a reason for me to envy someone.
Sigh.  

Thursday, May 22, 2014

I rule my life

2014 is the year where I turn 18.
2014 is also the year where my life get complicated and tangled. I bet this is not a me thing because probably everyone experienced the same thing at this age.

I don't know how I actually made it to form 6 but since it's a cheaper choice, I'm ok with it. But due to some reason I need to go through a lot of procedures in order to let myself to be in the form 6 list. During the process, many people actually questioned me. "x is a good opportunity, why did you let go?" This is one of the common question that I got asked.

Easy. It's because I don't want to force myself to do something that I dislike. I'm tired of being looked down by other people. I know I can perform better, I have the ability but just not in this field. I can't see the point why you're studying something that you can't cope with, isn't it just a waste of time and energy to try on a futile attempt?

On the other hand, I'm pretty glad that I made an escape from the old place. It's like how the solders need a new armor for every battle. Somewhere that has no black memories. Starting with something new can be really tough, but time will neutralize everything. If you never give yourself a chance to try something new, you'll never know what you can come up with.

Hence, good luck,
xo