I rule my life

2014 is the year where I turn 18.
2014 is also the year where my life get complicated and tangled. I bet this is not a me thing because probably everyone experienced the same thing at this age.

I don't know how I actually made it to form 6 but since it's a cheaper choice, I'm ok with it. But due to some reason I need to go through a lot of procedures in order to let myself to be in the form 6 list. During the process, many people actually questioned me. "x is a good opportunity, why did you let go?" This is one of the common question that I got asked.

Easy. It's because I don't want to force myself to do something that I dislike. I'm tired of being looked down by other people. I know I can perform better, I have the ability but just not in this field. I can't see the point why you're studying something that you can't cope with, isn't it just a waste of time and energy to try on a futile attempt?

On the other hand, I'm pretty glad that I made an escape from the old place. It's like how the solders need a new armor for every battle. Somewhere that has no black memories. Starting with something new can be really tough, but time will neutralize everything. If you never give yourself a chance to try something new, you'll never know what you can come up with.

Hence, good luck,
xo