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Ayo people! Couldn't believe that I'm actually here, my one and only blog, and I'm going to blog a post! I know, its been awhile since my last post. So please don't mind if this post didn't come out so well, you know, blogging isn't an easy task plus I didn't blog for a very long time already :(

I have no idea how I made it here, I have so much to say and so many things playing in my mind but the truth is, no one is willing to listen. I kinda kept all the words to myself but there's always a limit and I just cant stand of it anymore!!!!!! I MUST EXPREEEESSSS MY FEELING. I DON'T CARE IF NO ONE IS READING AS LONG AS MY POST IS PUBLISHED! K done. That's all for my rant. This is why I never want to delete my blog, because no matter how long, how far I go, this is the only place where I can sit down peacefully and start writing (atho I dont do it frequently lately) For me, this blog is my everything, it contains a lot of past memories and most importantly it reminds me  I used to be a happy and joyful girl, the girl who has the word "happiness" written all over her face. Yeap that's right "USED TO" means not anymore. How sad.

As I grow up, things aren't the same anymore. Well, maybe its my own fault for creating the false image of happiness. I thought everything was perfect, but no, its not perfect at all. NEVER. Its me, who has been hesitating and never landed a footstep out from the comfort zone. When the world collapses, I tend to realize, oh, this is life, this is how my life should be. Walking cluelessly, I cant see my leg and where's the lane, where I'm going, where's my destination. There are so many junctions pointing to different ways. What makes me even sad is, I'm alone...

People never know what's playing in my mind and they NEVER want to know. Thanks to these people, I learn how to hide my feelings, I hide it deeply, so no one can figure out. Even if they do, I'll pretend as if nothing happens and continue walking on the endless track till I reach my destination. If only there's a place for me...